Hello darkness my old friend, I´ve missed you...

Recently, I´ve got the feeling any girl wants to feel, the feeling of sinking into the dark...
"Oh dakness, why, why in this moment you´re calling my name and claiming my thoughts? Why? Please, I beg you, I want to stay i the Bright side, I want to get old and and clean and inocent..."
This is what a normal girl should say to darkness and to lonelyness, but no,
No
Tonight
Tonight I just want to sink into it´s arms and forget my whole world...
Tonight I´ll just say
"Hello darkkness my old friend, I´ve missed you...
I see you brought lonelyness with you..."
And just Let Go...
But no, that isn´t what I am supposed to do...
I´m supposed to give fight to it, and try to stay sane and all that stuff
Not any more...
Why can´t I just be who I am, because this is what I am and who I´ll always be, and if that means sinking inthe darkest sea of lonelyness, I just want the water not to be that cold as I expect it is, and if I drown in it, I´ll just let go as I always try to do...