Hello darkness my old friend, I´ve missed you...

Recently, I´ve got the feeling any girl wants to feel, the feeling of sinking into the dark...
"Oh dakness, why, why in this moment you´re calling my name and claiming my thoughts? Why? Please, I beg you, I want to stay i the Bright side, I want to get old and and clean and inocent..."
This is what a normal girl should say to darkness and to lonelyness, but no,
No
Tonight
Tonight I just want to sink into it´s arms and forget my whole world...
Tonight I´ll just say
"Hello darkkness my old friend, I´ve missed you...
I see you brought lonelyness with you..."
And just Let Go...
But no, that isn´t what I am supposed to do...
I´m supposed to give fight to it, and try to stay sane and all that stuff
Not any more...
Why can´t I just be who I am, because this is what I am and who I´ll always be, and if that means sinking inthe darkest sea of lonelyness, I just want the water not to be that cold as I expect it is, and if I drown in it, I´ll just let go as I always try to do...

Dreams are a bullshit, hpoe is a heart-breaking friend

Sometimes, I imagine I can be someone, a someone who guys folllow, a someone who has many friends, a someone who goes to parties and has a boyfriend, but as I come back from that alucination, I think "thanks god I´m not like that". It's me. I am myself. I am who I am. It´s me, and it will be always be me.

Dreams, diferent from alucinations, are the ray of light, the sugr in the coffee of an awfull life. Dreams can make you imagine you and the boy you have a crush on, kissing in the terrace, dreams can make you believe he´ll leave her and run to your arms, but no, dreams are a bullshit that just take your breath away just to mock at you with it...

Dreams and hopes are, they are, they are the little light going into a sea of darkness, and that sea of darkness is the lonelyness of your whole damn life. Something you hope is something you want to recieve or get from something or someone.
And there is where I think
"what an amusing life from the ones who hope or dream"
In my case dreams, had come from that beautiful tree branch to laugh at me to insult me and to tell me he is not something to care about.
That is why I love hope, because it is the wonderful mess of your broken soul that taste so good, that you just enjoy it...
And if you have a dream my friend, think it twice before you start believing you can  or you will accomplish it, ´cause you won´t...

and then again is when I think

Dreams

Are

A

Bullshit
but then again...
we all
love
to 
dream